a chat

Hi all

I wood like to start this blog as a serious blog as my other ones were good but I did feel weard on them all even the chat resort and this one is called scottish fun as I do this hobbie for just playing around with a computer as I sit at home all day its not my fault I do this it’s the way the scottish government treats disabled people in the full of the UK once you leave the education system that is you forgot about sitting at home all day and I do not know how people general care givers put up with this and try to have a job as well the government do not care about familys who have to work if you were a lady who gave birth lets say next week you wood get a year and all your holidays gave to you and a small bit more cash as well to me that is not right at all if you give birth a few months wood be more than you could have if you worked for me I think 6 month wood be your limit as that is how places can not run as we have 2 ladys off at my care givers place no 3 the more I mind

2 have only just started there long holiday I call it a holiday as you can not need all that time off you may as well leave your job and find a new job if you want to now I heard a roomer that the third lady wood be coming back june or july but I think that is totally wrong as she stated to me it wood be a year and more and she never went off to october in less she is comeing back early but I can not see this since its not been 1 year yet and I am not wrong I do not think as I saw her last august and she told me she was going off in october her name is eve just in case I talk about her in future times

We had this other girl called vickie who gave birth as well and she came back and all the staff said vickie we are amazed you came back vickie was brave and smart and told them I need my job even if its only 2 days a week of corse she does need a wage to keep her kids as she has got two she had 2 years off so she should of not been able to clame her post back after the second year and this is what I mean ladys get all the support and help to have a family or to give birth and then you have people like me who gets no dam support and I know you have other day services but some of them just take you some where to sit for a few hours like a bar and again I wood get board as that is all they do daily or once a week with this person its 1 to 1 support but its only for out doors nothing else and who pays for that the government as they waste a lot of cash on things that could be better put to use like jobs for disabled people if they fund me to get a lady or a man to help me in a travel store I wood love that even if it was only putting the latest books on the desks or looking on google for the weather for that traveler who had booked lets say paris or portugal or his stag in prague there is a lot of jobs that disabled folk can do check out at a food store and wosh a car or work in cafes again no support so there stuck at home doing nothing and for all we know the care givers might have a job working away every few weeks so can not be there 24 hours a day

I do feel the need to have a blog as this passed weekk I have felt very upset and as if I need a break away but I can not access this until august I wood like to speak to some one heart to heart but the problem is there that busy they have not got time they can not even take you to the toilet for a shight now that is very important to have a shight as that is how you can get sick and you can laugh at my swearing you are welcome to laugh at me as I will only swear on the blog just to tell you how I am feeling and this week has not been the best week with a lot of feelings of all sorts in fact I was wanting to go in there had our manager our main manager not a bloody team leader I better watch as my named person is a team leader who has came around to my ways of using specialist words for items which if other users are in who can pick you up and repeat things that you have said I will need to allways use the specialist words if they do not let me shight in august they will hear me as I am going to be there for 6 full days or it I call this an it as that is what I think of when you ar pushing one out for some odd reason our main manager is going to spain to the island of tenerife lucky her I think she needs a break after her man died now after her man died she came back to work 2 weeks later I do not know how she managed to come back that fast well with helen been new sort of she can not cope with the running of the diarry I am sure elaine the admin could of took that part as half of her job is dealing with dates of visits and my second thoughts does she not trust her staff maybe as some of them walk after 3 weeks yes you see how I am sort of scared to go here but I think this week wood of maybe helped with my anxiety as it was up very high the paris in france is not doing well with its weather its 36 degrees and sunny you wood vomit in that heat and that is how food goes out of date faster I mind one time ages ago mum got coldslaw for the supper at the time it was hot and at the time the coldslaw was lovely but the next day I felt vomitish and my tummy felt upside down and at some points in the day I was boaking and at some points I thought I was going to vomit I wished I had as I was boaking that much no more coldslaw when its hot

As food can be on the turn and you do not know it have you ever ate something and the next day you feel vomitish

I hope I can see vickie again as she wants to help me with private things but in order for her to do that she will need to know that list wich some staff are saying I do not need well friends how wood you like to go up to some one on the side walk and say to them I need a shight you wood get weard looks for sure phew is like a public place as well its not your own family so you need to tell them in the most private way you can as its not for all to know

Hugs

Jm